Thoughts of you
There are days when I miss you so acutely that it feels like a slab of concrete on my chest, crushing me, forcing me down into the earth.
I am paralyzed from the heart down, incapable of escaping the avalanche of emotion but present enough to bear witness to the massacre.
But it’s beautiful, like watching a lightning storm in full swing.
An elegant form of destruction.
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
And, I miss what cannot be.
I have always been self-reliant. I stand on my own two feet and I’m proud of that.
But, I need you.
I need you like a fish needs water to breathe and like flowers need the sun to grow.
I need you for sustenance.
I need you not because I lost myself in you but because I found myself with you.
That’s why even though I might be crushed by the immensity of this longing, I will always be right beside you.
Because even having you like this, as a friend, is better than not having you at all.